Okay, I get it. You’re scared. You don’t want commitment because you think you’ll find someone better. But Tin, why don’t you just try it out?
Ben has always been understanding and mature enough to know that if things don’t work out, there is a reason enough to justify why they didn’t. You’re underestimating his ability to interpret your thoughts and hear you out.
But you know, at this point in time, as of July 27, 2017 8:13pm, he’s the best one out there. You’ll never be sure if there’s anyone better, which is why committing to someone will always be such a gamble. I know you keep reminding yourself that we’re just 18, too young to be sure of someone. This is your mind working against your heart now. What if your heart is just too sure of him already? Will you wait ’til you’re 25 and ready to try things out with him?
If that’s the case, you’ll never be sure of anyone. Tangina, edi magka boyfriend ka nalang pag 29 ka na. You’re going to miss out on so many good people in your entire life just because of that constant fear. But I get it still. You just don’t want to break someone’s heart. I guess, once again, you above everybody.
Do yourself a favor; gamble on Ben. Worth it naman siya, ‘di ba? He’s kind-hearted, caring, hard working, driven, handsome, sensitive and protective. He’s mature and very understanding. He’s a good listener. He’s shy at times, but that’s just the way he is. Isn’t it so cute, though? He’s introverted, but then once you get him to start talking, he’ll just go on and on (in a good way). He cares about you and is willing to take a chance on you.
It’s so cute when he’s so interested in what he’s talking about. It’s like his eyes light up and his smile looks a bit different. When he’s singing in the car, it’s the most precious sight ever. He looks so goofy, it’s almost like he’s doing it on purpose just to make you laugh. Always listen to the songs he sends, watch the videos he links you to. It’s just his little ways of getting you involved in his life, a simple way to view his world & his mind. Don’t ever take that for granted. You see, Ben is a very reserved person. He picks the people he deals with, very very well. Consider it an honor every time he opens up to you about how he feels, especially when it’s about something very sensitive. Ben is very eccentric. You’ll never completely be able to understand how his mind works. But then I think you’re perfectly ok in the background, listening to his little ramblings about the world. At certain times, be patient with him, sometimes he isn’t as sensitive as he wishes to be – but he’s trying. He isn’t good in expressing himself, but who is?
Another thing: Support him. Sometimes Ben just needs that extra push to get started. There are so many big ideas going on in his mind. At times, he might just need a critical viewer to give him comments on his next big thing. Don’t switch on him, he’s got big plans! Always believe in him and listen to what he says. I’m sure that if it matters to him, it matters to you too. Sometimes he feels like his ideas are stupid (well, we all think that about our own, anyways) so give him that extra boost!!!
Don’t you ever think about the first time you guys started talking? I don’t know if it was because you were being friendly, but then it’s almost as if your friendship with him just fell into place. Talking to him felt so natural, I guess. Everything went so smoothly after that. You guys had so much on common, little by little becoming immersed in each other’s worlds.
I feel like getting with him will feel like a second nature kind of choice. It’s almost instinctive to just hug him and kiss him, don’t you think so? So yeah, don’t be afraid. I think it will be nice, happy and easy when things work out with him. That is, if you give him a shot in making you happy.
PS ANG EFFORT NIYA HA!!!! QC TO MERVILLE THEN BACK TO PASIG, HABA NG HAIR MO. HE ATE WITH UR FAMILY PA DO U KNO HOW SCARY DAT IS CONSIDERING DI PA KAYO! TANGINA KUNG DI MO YAN PAPATULAN MALAY KO BA